Jonny the Recovering Technophiliac

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so the last time i made a blog post was on thanksgiving…and if memory serves me right then it should nearly be about a month since i last blogged (and if not then i really dont care…at 145am i don’t quite have the mental power to calculate time differentials).  can i say that ive been through some form of blog burnout? yes…i mean c’mon, there’s no sense in hiding the obvious.  I’ve been posting once every month instead of every week/day like i’d do during my collegiate days. so where does this leave the state of my blog?  well firstly, it’s still surviving and probably will stay that way for as long as i can.  I feel it still has a personal purpose to me, i just need to give it a much needed renovation.  So long story short, before i can post more frequently, i need to give the ‘ol blog a nice scrubbing.  So anyways, lets recap from this month shall we?

the recaps
1. this is my first xmas at home in 3 years…it does feel good again.  i mean i love colombia, but i miss the feeling of being home for the holidays.  that’s just my preference.
2. i missed happy hour.  i was at a recent party for BCNY and there was this one bartender who not only hooked me up with drinks, but was cute/smart too.  who’d a thunk that intellectual flirting can pay off!
3. kevin needs a smartphone, the poor guy’s too tired to even open up his lappy when he comes back from work looking all zombified.  please steve, just make the iphone work for t-mobile mmkay?
4. just to show how active my imagination can be at 3am, i was tired and hungry…then i thought of a solution…redbull pie!  i could make a killing!  here’s my proposed business model:

1: bake redbull pie
2: ? ? ?
3: PROFIT!!

sorry dear, i got dibs on the patents for the recipe

interesting or wtf quotes
Len: he is old, so very old cheese
Len: maybe thats why he’s so good

Steve: hate writing papers
Jon: lol
Jon: well duh
Jon: you’re a teacher
Steve: lol
Steve: i still hate writing them
Steve: shit
Jon: hehe

Kev: do you seen cornflakes?
Kev: i.e. snow
Jon: yes, snowflakes
Jon: you didn’t have breakfast did you?
Kev: how’d ya figure?

ok, so i cant quite remember the last time i had a thanksgiving this good and tasty…and it wasnt just because if the meal itself.  i mean it was so much of everything rolled up into 1…ok, lets recap:

1. firstly, my parents where never the social types to invite guests and all to big meals or holidays…i guess that’s why kevin and i sometimes fill in that void when we hang out w/ friends.  this year my mom invited my godmother for thanksgiving…a first invite of any kind…and it actually worked.  we all talked about a bit of everything, and it made the meal pretty enjoyable what with new material and all.

2. i could eat without worrying about any impending trips to colombia…dont get me wrong, i love my extended family as insane as some of them can be, but i miss celebrating the holidays back at home in NY.  And after 4 years of traveling to Colombia, i think some change would be nice…at least it helps me save some $$$ for a little bit of xmas shopping.

3. there is no #3.

4. i got in contact with old faces, makes me glad i still have the ones i care of around me…greg, tiffany, jason, shirley, kim, thomas, amy, abner, tom…just to name a few.

5. i can finally goto the holiday parties my friends always went to but i couldn’t due to trips south of the border (not mexico way).

6. i can finally watch the charlie brown xmas special on TV instead of a poorly-dubbed spanish version at the hotel, lol…i mean regardless of any program, keep the original language for authenticity folks.  thats why subtitles where invented!  to not muck up the quality of the original program.  it could be a spanish movie dubbed in english, it would still suck.  So to all the tv execs…use subtitles, mmkay?  now lemme finish watching my charlie brown xmas special ok?

so that’s just about it…this thanksgiving was better than the previous ones.  so lets bring on december, on a good note may i add.

According to the wiki entry on the word “blah”:

“…Blah is a token word with no meaning of its own, usually used to
illustrate generic, boring speech. It may be used to fill in blank
space, or to replace another word or phrase. It’s for this last purpose
that blah is sometimes assumed to mean something negative because it is used to replace a word that may be unpleasant, but blah itself is neutral…”

For the past few weeks, the blah’d ambiance has settled in…which for the record, isn’t a good thing.  My mom’s been rather depressed since this coming xmas will be in NY and not in Colombia…the first time since my father’s passing.  Sometimes she wishes she was able to save him on that fateful day and proceeded to just put herself down.  I stopped her..told her that she’s a good person for making it this far and to never self-doubt.  I was guilty of self-doubting a long time ago ’till a close friend helped put things in it’s proper order.  So through that experience, i helped coax my mom and assured her that there was nothing any of us could’ve done to save him…all we can do is to make the most out of the holidays and not make it so “blah” by rehashing bad memories and beating ourselves to the ground.  It never gets better, just easier to cope with…so no sense in making things worse by abusing ourselves. 

That night i still felt much less blah’d-out, knowing that i’ve done my part to help lift a weight off my mom’s shoulders.  Sometimes the most negative of experiences may contain hidden blessings, as it helps us permanently learn things for the better, and to pass down the advice and experience to the next person who may be walking down that same jagged path you once walked on…so that person can be aware, just a little more.

so for a while ive been staying up late at night whether its watching tv, gaming, or watching a movie…not that i mind burning the midnight oil once in a while, but when done often, your mind tends to confuse any time late night as “yesterday”.  like it could be 3am tuesday and i’ll still tell my friends

“oh see ya tmw morning then?”

…they’d reply with

“you mean wednesday or the same tuesday just in sunrise-mode?”

see how the mind can get confused?  I love bieng a night-owl, its amazing, but its something my head’s not quite used to yet.  Well, till tomorrow! (its still 30 min till midnight for me anyway)…but your mileage may vary